Hi Guys – I am still here…. sort of. Waving – not drowning…. and I feel that I can now break my blogging silence, as the weight of depression and chaos has lifted – albeit – temporarily from my shoulders.
I became conditioned to react to the absence of noise.
As to the other areas of my life, they are also on hold. But – spurred into action by an unexpected phone call, demanding intense soul searching, a couple of weeks ago, on Friday I made some really important decisions, that this time I am going to stick to, as part of my five year goal.
The last three years have shot past in a blur, mostly because I have been waiting and occupying my mind as best I can, and just wishing the time away
“it will be ok when that is sorted out”;
“I can’t do that yet, because I need an answer to this, which will impact into that”
“I need to speak to them at that appointment, so that with the answers I can go to the next appointment”
You get the drift…
I know, I know I have said this before and make no apologies for not having the strength or breathe sometimes to fight for what is, after all my human right, to live my life as I see fit.
Sometimes I just need to sit and think, just pause, reboot, and that opportunity has been denied me by others, without even thought or consideration. Ta very muchely…..
“You will miss me when I am in Africa……” – or Wales, or ……whatever…….